This is what I don’t know how to say and since you don’t like all the fluff in the middle I will list them for you.
1.) I am numb
2.) I am sad (yes you can be both.)
3.) My suicidal thoughts are getting worse.
4.) I can’t trust myself to be alone
5.) 7/30/15 was attempted suicide that changed everything.
6.) That guilt I have from it is overwhelming
7.) I don’t know how to express myself
8.) I waited until it exploded.
9.) I have disassociation issues
10.) I’ve cried on the bathroom floor at 3 am
11.) I have an album on my phone titled “Remember what you’re fighting for.”
12.) I really want to self medicate
13.) I’m trying but it feels like I’m failing
14.) I don’t know what to do anymore
15.) I’m still here by the grace of God.