I saw this challenge going around Instagram and had to join in. It is the don’t suffer in silence challenge. Join in and help end the stigma on mental health. We shouldn’t suffer in silence anymore!!!

I saw this challenge going around Instagram and had to join in. It is the don’t suffer in silence challenge. Join in and help end the stigma on mental health. We shouldn’t suffer in silence anymore!!!

We always walk through Midtown to get to Piedmont Park for the AFSP walk and every year we pass by the same Irish Pub and say we are going to stop there but never do for some reason but this year we were finally able to. Fado’s is amazing and if you have a chance to stop in I definitely recommend it. You can never beat a good burger and theirs is one of the best I’ve ever had. I love when burgers are served like this. You know they are going to be delicious. I think this will be our new tradition. 🖤

All of my pictures and post are very loosely based on the actual post. This is my list of blog posts that I don’t finish most of the time kind of like this challenge I’m rushing to finish because today is the 30th and I still have 23 more to go which I won’t finish tonight and will have to tomorrow which is the first and it kind of sucks.

Here is a picture of me working on my book. I am always working on my book. I have a ton of pictures like this and absolutely no book to show for it…go figure. All I know is this book will be a masterpiece when I’m finished. Hopefully the next time I talk about the book it will actually be finished.

I was terrified when we went to Ruby Falls small caves and me don’t go well. I am extremely happy to see all the beautiful designs that were made by God and Mother Nature. It is amazing how something can be so ugly yet so beautiful.

Again I promise I am not a creepy stalker, but this happens to be my favorite actress singing my favorite song. This is beginning to seem a little creepy, but I must continue on, who knows you may like me being completely creepy, but I am not a stalker. After the election she sang this song at the beginning of the show and it is one of my favorite versions of the song. I actually love every version of the song except the original (which is odd.) I have a playlist with nothing but Hallelujah on it. I always look for new and different versions. There is something so raw about it and it really resonates with me and my illness. This song has also saved my life many times. This song can knock me out of dissociative state. I love the song so much it is tattooed on my arm. What makes you happy? Is there a song that helps you?

I love this picture mostly because it is genuine and it is the only genuine smile I ever had in years. This picture coincidentally happened in 2015 when everything in my life went to shit. (see previous posts) This was right after the overdose before my baptism, exorcism and medical induced manic, schizophrenic, paranoid episodes. This was before I hit a new level of rock bottom. I was happy right there. I thought I was making everything better but rock bottom came after. 
I have a list of things that make me smile or laugh when I’m having a bad day because let’s be honest when you deal with an Illness like mine you need everything in your corner. I have a list of YouTube videos I watch regularly. They vary from clips from Family Guy, The Simpson’s to SNL. I have particular SNL skits that I absolutely love and I just think you should know that Kate McKinnon and I should be best friends. ( I mean this in the most non stalker/creepy way) I just think our personalities are similar. So my favorite SNL skits are the encounters. If you haven’t washed they are absolutely hilarious. We all need a list of things that make us smile.

Why pick one color when you can pick a rainbow. I took this picture when my moods were bad, but it makes me happy. I had a horrible day during the summer when I came home my daughter did everything she could make my happy and when she started I instantly felt worse. So instead I started spray painting for my event and then it started to rain. We needed more spray paint so we jumped in the car and as we were driving the down the road this beautiful rainbow appears. After I saw it I decided to turn back around and go home. When we got here we played in the rain for a good hour before coming in and ate spaghetti o’s. That horrible day turned into an amazing one and who knew it could all start with a rainbow.

