Sometimes it be like that when I’m not here as much as I should be and I shouldn’t do anymore of these damn challenges because it pisses me off. I have a bunch of catch up blogs I’m working on just bear with me. I’ll be back in action.
Tag: photo-a-day challenge
Photo Day 16 A genuine smile
I love this picture mostly because it is genuine and it is the only genuine smile I ever had in years. This picture coincidentally happened in 2015 when everything in my life went to shit. (see previous posts) This was right after the overdose before my baptism, exorcism and medical induced manic, schizophrenic, paranoid episodes. This was before I hit a new level of rock bottom. I was happy right there. I thought I was making everything better but rock bottom came after. 
Photo Day 13 Windows that opened my soul
There are plenty of pictures I can find that I took of windows with beautiful views, but personally this one is my favorite. This is the building where I hosted my first ever event and this is also the first time I really talked about my illness and my struggles. It is very easy to discuss my problems on social media because I am hiding behind a screen, but to standup and say it out loud is a completely different experience. I thought I was open about my illness until I started telling people my story, my addiction issues, hospitalizations they were in shock. This advocating I swore I was doing and spreading my story and information didn’t happen. When I was finished I had people come up to me crying asking me what they could do to help and they didn’t know it was that bad. I hid behind a screen because I thought at onetime sharing information via mental health websites was enough but it wasn’t. I told part of my story and I made a difference. So now I have a blog and social media pages dedicated to my struggles to help get the word spread with everyone. Hopefully a book will come soon with all of it…..(we are hoping anyway.)
Photo Day 12 Buttoned
I thought about this for awhile it is hard to figure out what I should use for buttoned. There are so many options but I picked this shirt because it is my favorite. I don’t know about others but there is something about my husband’s shirts that is so intriguing, maybe it is his scent even after the shirt is washed I can still smell it. I like wear his shirts he feels close to me especially when he is at work and I start to feel bad. I had a bad dream one night that he passed away and before he went I kept trying to get to him but I couldn’t and when I finally reached him he was ready to say goodbye and he handed me his wallet and keys then drifting away. I sat crying holding one is his shirts inhaling his scent begging for him to come back. I don’t like those dreams when my husband dies it scares me.
Photo Day 9 Grateful
I am grateful for my spectacles. I had such a hard time with my vision before I realized I had such great insurance that covered almost EVERYTHING. It’s amazing how much my they’ve helped with everything. It is the little things to be thankful for. 
Day 8 Grateful for Numbers
5 – Month my daughter was born
29 – Day my daughter was born
9- Months my husband and I were born
13- Day my husband was born
20- Day I was born
10- Month we started dating
1- Day we started dating 
Photo Day 8 – Indulgent
This is one of my favorite snacks. I buy it in bag bags most of the time. It fits in my bag and is the perfect on the go snack. This is as much chocolate I eat ever it will be this and scary movies. I love scary movies but I’m not allowed to watch them.
Photo Day 7 Arranged photos
This was hard to do because I don’t like photos that were arranged I think good pictures should be random because random is amazing. The picture I really want use I can’t because of the place I go. So I dug through all of my pictures to find something that is mildly arranged. It took me awhile to find but it is coffee and donuts so yay!!!!
Photo Day 6 – Laundry a pic at noon.
I know most people would take a picture of the sky, clouds, a plant or something so ironically beautiful and then there is me. My picture at noon is laundry. I think that every photo shouldn’t be beautiful it should be realistic. So here is a picture of my washing machine because at noon this is what I’m doing today besides working on my blog.
Photo Day 5 – Patterns are beautiful no matter what they are.
Sharpies are my favorite pens. I have all different colors and tips. They are a beautiful pattern when they are spread out everywhere. I can’t draw that well but when it comes to writing they are perfect.
♥ Daisies and Bruises ♥ 