This was hard to do because I don’t like photos that were arranged I think good pictures should be random because random is amazing. The picture I really want use I can’t because of the place I go. So I dug through all of my pictures to find something that is mildly arranged. It took me awhile to find but it is coffee and donuts so yay!!!!
So I’ve tried not to be cliche’ on these challenges because everyone will say something like the day I got married, when my child was born, a job promotion but not me because I like it weird. This memory is me helping my husband clean a boat after he finally let me come home last year. I was still detoxing, felt horrible and this day was supposed to be the two of us spending the day together and work on some of things for me to a.) not go back to the hospital b.) able to stay home c.) make our marriage work d.) realize that the world can’t keep revolving around me…. you get the point but he had a last minute call for a job and he needed to take it so he left. I was sitting at home by myself detoxing feeling like complete and utter shit not just because I was coming off a manic drug induced high – getting kicked out of the house – wanting to pop more pills issue but I was looking forward to this time with him and I proudly did the opposite of what I would normally do which is get high and I called him to ask if I could come help him. You could hear the shock in his voice when I asked of course he said yes and texted me the address. I went over with headphones I shop vac and started cleaning a boat. We didn’t talk but I did see him look at me a few times and smile; I knew then that I listened to right part of my head the part that was almost sober and all I wanted to do after that was prove that I’d changed and I could be a better person more importantly a better example for my daughter. I look at this day even though it was something so simple it changed my outlook on everything.
I know most people would take a picture of the sky, clouds, a plant or something so ironically beautiful and then there is me. My picture at noon is laundry. I think that every photo shouldn’t be beautiful it should be realistic. So here is a picture of my washing machine because at noon this is what I’m doing today besides working on my blog.
I know why would I be grateful about the word suicide but I am. I am grateful for the word suicide because it has taught me so much about myself, my struggles, my courage and how to love someone especially myself.
How does that work? Well in my case I had to try it a bunch of times and it not work for me to realize how much that word impacted so many people. They say we give a word power but do we really give it power? It is powerful in itself because it’s something that we lose power of ourselves to get to this point in our life. We can say the word but being there makes every word powerful. What do you think? 
Sharpies are my favorite pens. I have all different colors and tips. They are a beautiful pattern when they are spread out everywhere. I can’t draw that well but when it comes to writing they are perfect.
I love pictures of clouds and sunsets/rises. Every time we go to the beach I get up early and watch the sun rise. We are all close to heavens reach even though it seems so far away. 
Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.
– Diet is still no happening
– No sodas still
– I’m working on the Grateful and Photo challenge as fillers until I can post some of my normal posts. I don’t want to not post anything but they are interesting if you give them a read.
– I keep talking about this giveaway and I promise I’m posting something about it today!!!
– I have a list of topics to discuss and some of them come from my Instagram if you want to check it out.
– I am still trying to figure out how these 20 and younger are making money off of this stuff. I’m doing something wrong
– I’ve been working on the book. Who would’ve thought that I am working on the very thing that I want to be known for.
– I thought about doing some podcasts but I’m not sure at this point.
-I have a big post about the walk coming out today. It has some videos and pictures. Look for it to drop soon. 👇✍️
-PLEASE COMMENT!! I want to know what I’m doing right and what I need to improve on to make sure you are getting good content.
– See you next week!!!
This was my great grandmothers necklace. She gave this to me when she passed away and at the time I wasn’t a believer so I threw it in a jewelry box, never thought about it again until 2015 when my life turned to a complete rock bottom I didn’t know how to get myself out of. I found this right before I was baptized and wore it when I was baptized. It now holds great meaning to me. I found my way back in my life when I needed it most. It is something that I can’t wait to pass down to my daughter.
When we went to the walk on the way back we stopped at Fados in midtown Atlanta. It was some of the best food I’ve had in awhile. I have pictures of the burgers which they cooked to a perfect medium rare. The hubby has the fish and chips which were like small pieces of perfection with every bite.
The first one is my Halloween production area waiting for trick or treaters (we only have 5). It is an old table I bought on clearance at Target. We never use it for anything else but it came in handy.
The second picture is not really a table but at the moment it worked. You need a place to put your Chinese food while you are working on blog posts you forget to post and/or save. Yep that happens often. The important thing to take from this is sometimes you got to work with what you have around you.
♥ Daisies and Bruises ♥ 