19%

I had my 6 month check up with my psychiatrist today and we were speaking openly about suicide after admitting that I was having suicidal thoughts. We were also discussing the differences in being suicidal and having suicidal thoughts (that is a different post.) He said that 19% of people diagnosed with bipolar disorder take their own life and that equals like 1 in 5. Those odds are shocking for some reason. If you think about the big picture 2.3 million Americans are diagnosed with bipolar disorder. If I did my math right that equals out to 437,000 people. That means there are 437,000 people contemplating suicide most with no support from anyone.I am one of the biggest supporters for the AFSP but how do we fix this? What can we as the mental health community do to combat these odds? There are so many people who can’t afford medicine, therapy let alone see a psychiatrist to properly diagnose and help them. This is something we need to recognize and help each other. We aren’t going to receive any help from the government and there is so much of a stigma attached to us people refuse to publicly support it unless it is a celebrity who claimed to “recover” from it. We need to speak openly and honestly about our struggles. I think we can be the change if we become more comfortable being open and knowing even though they might not understand we can make them care. 1 person loss to suicide is 1 too many. Let’s start the conversation and help decrease these numbers.

Prince William reveals celebrities shunned his mental health charity- see link attached (copied from website.)

Prince William has revealed that every celebrity he asked to support his mental health charity three years ago refused.

The Duke of Cambridge was speaking at the Davos World Economic Forum when he admitted that “a lot” of famous people were approached to back his Heads Together initiative, but none wanted to be associated with mental illness (via BBC).

In 2017, William, Kate and Prince Harry founded the charity, which aims to tackle the stigma surrounding mental health.

The 36-year-old royal suggested that the wartime generation may have contributed to the stigma attached to mental health issues.

“For some reason, people are embarrassed about their emotions – British people particularly,” William told the audience of business leaders. “A whole generation inherited [this way of coping]. This was the way you deal with your problems: you don’t talk about it.”

https://www.harpersbazaar.com/uk/culture/culture-news/a26019349/prince-william-celebrities-shunned-mental-health-charity/?fbclid=IwAR2geQOlS9sSJxqf1_KqerSvp2GvPzq6fUz5m7VSV3UH5yFkRQum6qLQpxs

 

There is no future. There is no past. I live each moment as my last.

The days feel like they drag on for hours and it is almost never ending torture since my moods are horrible. I just want to lay in bed under the covers and hide from everyone, that sounds amazing. I did have fun with Wayne today, we went to Madison to Wal-Mart to go grocery shopping and he was in a good mood. Those good moods aren’t happening as often so I try to soak it up when he’s having them. I wish I could do something to make him feel better about our money situation. It is just temporary because for both of us March picks up and we are extremely busy. I get why he is bummed but I do not give advice because I mentally can’t understand some of these emotions because I deal with them and it doesn’t make sense to me so I can’t help other people with something even I can’t understand. When we got home today I forgot RENT was live on TV. That made me so happy I love RENT and I’ve seen it performed at the Classic Center in Athens twice. I would love to see it performed on Broadway at the end they had the original cast from the Broadway performance sing with the cast and it brought tears to my eyes. It was absolutely perfect. It was a great way to end my day just hope the man leaves soon and my moods start to shift. It hasn’t happened yet but I am hopeful.