This seems almost impossible. It feels like every time I take one step forward with my new resources I am kicked back because of something. It seems once I get in a groove of posting on time and then something happens and I get thrown off again. I can’t seem to get steady. I don’t post for days and then I post over 20 and then silent again. If anyone has any ideas on how to make this more consistent I am up to listening for suggestions. I really want to make this successful and try to work it out where this is my job but again I have no idea what in the hell I am doing. I will keep on with these and the chronicles to see if I get somewhere?????
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You are worthy of wanting something more
I always knew this, but I have never had the courage or the want to do something new. I am terrified of failure and of any consequences from telling my story. I have so many skeletons in my closet that the door can barely shut. There are so many stories about me that other people can tell even though they aren’t told correctly. I decided when I started this to leave a large portion of stories out to protect people though most of them don’t deserve protecting. I just feel like they are entitled to their part of the story also I know some of them have children and I don’t think their wrong doings is my business to tell them. I would want the same respect though I don’t think any of them want to talk about anything that happened. I like to believe that people change and who they were 5 or 10+ years ago isn’t who they are today. I hope they have bettered themselves and I know they are living with the guilt of their decisions. So here it goes these are the stories of my life both good and bad even though they don’t deserve it.
Weekly Update 12
– We are just going to completely skip the diet and exercise.
– No sodas or caffeine….almost I still drink coffee
– I am drinking more water than anything else right now which is great.
– I had a doctor visit today….
– No more challenges as I talked about last time.
– The Bipolar Chronicles are something I’ve worked on and I think I am ready to share them with the world. These are things that I’ve gone through from the time I was diagnosed. There are pictures and stories I’ve never shared before.
-Thank you for all of you support.
Let’s keep on talking
#bipolarstrong
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My tattoos and an Old Southern Baptist Church
We go to a very Old Southern Baptist Church. I am a 4th generation member of the church, my husband is a deacon and I try to go whenever I can, but other aspects of my life limit me from going to church every Sunday. Today because of how last night started and the way I felt this morning I ended up at church with my husband. I forgot my sweater so my tattoos are out for display. I usually cover them out of respect for the church but I kind of it didn’t this time. While I know that the majority of the congregation has no judgement because they’ve known since I was born, but I still get those looks. I try not to let it bother me because I know the older members (when I say old I mean 65+) don’t understand our generation and tattoos. I will say they still shake my hand and talk to me their eyes still fixed on my tattoos. I know some of you are probably in shock that I go to church. I am a firm believer in God and his word. Today I just felt a little (lot) out of place with my tattoos showing. It didn’t stop me from worshipping though. It is almost Christmas and the advent candles it is my favorite time at church. So that’s my morning at church. My husband is in a deacons meeting which makes for a perfect time to write. 
Photo Day 30- cooked- Dunkin Donuts
I finally finished this fucking challenge. It is only 12/1 but at least this one is done now. Next time I make this decision please tell me no. Dunkin Donuts cooked donuts. I love donuts and I love that this is over. Now to finish the other one. 🖤👌
Grateful Day 30- Photo
Here is a photo. I’m done with this. Peace out.
Photo Day 29- Broken
I was rushing to work eating a biscuit from Golden Pantry when some asshole rushes beside me almost side swiping me and I yank my steering wheel to miss him and it slams into a drain on an island in the middle of the road and I dropped my biscuit which I was more pissed about. I had my husband meet me at the Golden Pantry to change my tire and I was over an hour late to work. People suck!
Photo Day 28 Expensive/ Hatchimal
Do you remember when these damn things came out and all of a sudden they were sold out. Well this mom sat outside a Toys R Us (RIP) all night to get one for her. I got there at 9:00 pm and say in 38 degree rain all night to get one of these. I had to go to work so I slept for like 30 minutes and then worked an 8 hour shift. The things you do for your kids.
Grateful Day 28- Tradition
Every year we get a Christmas Tree and watch National Lampoons Christmas Vacation. I know it isn’t a huge deal but to my daughter it means the world. These are the things when she gets older she will share with her children.
Photo Day 27 Under- A view from the balcony
I took my daughter to see Beauty and The Beast ballet in the big city. (Atlanta) This was her first time ever at the ballet and my first time going in years. I got the tickets last minute and they were $50 for both in decent seats. I got off work at 4 and the show started at 6:30. We live an hour or more from Atlanta depending on traffic. I rush him change clothes and then rush through Atlanta traffic. We get there early and it was the smartest decision we ever made. I loved watching her eyes widen as the dancers went across the stage. She thoroughly enjoyed it and I enjoyed watching it through her eyes.
♥ Daisies and Bruises ♥ 