Today I was so productive it is amazing how much I can get done if I just focus on my tasks at hands I knocked out 15 blog entries and a lot on my Instagram. Today my dreams felt like they are coming more naturally and I’m getting ready for big things that are possibly coming soon. I am making such a huge difference in my life and it is the positive outlook I need to make myself feel a little better. I need to find these small miracles amongst everything that is going on to make me feel better.
No diet
No soda
No caffeine
Check for back post ( I am really behind on journal entries
New Bipolar Chronicles coming soon
January totals posted
February goals posted
Moods suck
The man still here and talking now
Dreams are horrible
Sleep feels almost nonexistent
Blog:
20 views a day- I was close but I stopped posting for awhile so it didn’t quite make it. I tried and got good numbers though.
Post two times a week– Didn’t happen but I did post a good bit
Document workout/diet- let’s skip this
Post at least 6 Bipolar Chronicles- I posted 5!! Go me!!!
80 subscribers- 105!!!!!
Total views for the month 2000- 1609 (I almost made it)
Total visitors 1500– 1180 not too bad
Instagram:
600 followers- complete
300 + visits per week– shadowbanned because Instagram wants to be an asshole
525 post– complete
Post @ least 3 times daily- close but I did post a lot
Blog post added- complete
Personal interest- complete
Funny/true things- complete
Workout journey- lets skip this
I will post February goals soon!!! I am so proud of myself
Blog:
125 subscribers
2000 visitors
1500 views
5 Bipolar Chronicles
3 post a week
10 views a day
200 likes
Keep up with daily journal and finish it before the month ends
Instagram:
750 followers
615 post
90+ visits per week
Blog post
Let’s see what February brings
Today was a day of me not accomplishing any blogs but binge watching television with Wayne. We did have some good conversation when our WiFi died for a little while. I love those conversations with him. We were watching Last Man Standing and that gave me an idea. I want us to go away to a cabin for a weekend and use no electronics. I feel like this maybe an impossible task because I love taking pictures to help with my memory and if I didn’t have a way to document it my head may explode. I waited too long for my check to finally be deposited. I had bills I didn’t want to pay. I need to get work done because the only way I will make any progress is to be consistent which is something I’m not good at. I am working on my book though which makes me happy.
Moods, dreams, the man sucks and I am trying to make improvements
I watched a movie about an awkward woman and I felt the need to share something because I am annoyed about many things at the moment.
– My teeth are probably cracking with the amount of peppermint I eat.
– I can’t keep peppermint on my side of the bed when I sleep because I eat it and I’m scared one day I will choke on it. I have a shirt that has peppermint drool stuck to it. (It is grosser than it sounds I promise.)
– I have an over abundance of lemonade cans on my side of the bed because I drink them in the middle of the night. It keeps me from getting up more than I have to.
– I drink so much lemonade I probably piss it out on a regular basis. I drink lemonade to avoid soft drinks.
– I haven’t worked on my blog but I did spend almost 45 minutes trying to learn how to French braid my hair but I got pissed off and quit.
– I am working on my book but not the part that I want to publish by the end of this year one of the follow ups because it helps me solve my problems.
– My mood swings suck a dick and currently are my reasons as to why I haven’t caught up on my blog.
So this is why I haven’t been around. I can write these but I can’t write an update or a blog post about what’s going on these last few days. I will try and get it done tomorrow. 🖤
It takes forever for me to find these damn quotes, anyway the money topic again. It is almost as annoying as my moods. We are tight on money which I’ve explained more than one time but we talked about it again and I got upset because I felt like it would be discussed every day I am off and don’t get me wrong we need to talk about it so we can get everything in place. I get paid tomorrow so we need to have a game plan but I want it to be a 2 minute conversation and let that be it but I know it helps him to talk about it but I got annoyed and my mood flipped switch on and I started shouting for no reason. Yep those are good times when I flip my shit for absolutely no reason. He actually isn’t talking about it that much I obsess over talking about it and I am the one working myself up for no reason. He was happy and in a good mood until I freaked out and ruined it, I am an expert at that. My moods are a continued problem with lack of sleep I am a ticking time bomb ready to explode at any given moment. It sucks to be like this.
Hi! I’m here and meh. I am still struggling but I threw myself into my book to solve some problems I’m dealing with. I have a stack of papers and half written journal entries/blog posts I’m working on but mostly on the book. I will post and check up tomorrow
Lots of love ❤️ 
Today was my last day of work for 3 whole days!! The Super Bowl is on tonight which I don’t care much for football but it will be fun to watch the commercials. I am hoping these days off will help my moods improve. I went outside with my daughter and watched her hover around the yard and down our street. We made some really cool videos of her which I enjoyed. I thought about uploading them. It’s sucks that my moods are causing so many problems and distance between people because I don’t want to hurt them. I need to work more on my blog and Instagram but I don’t feel like it and Instagram shadowbanned me again so it won’t be exciting until they stop that shit. The man is always around and watching me. He still talks occasionally.
The weather was perfect today and when I got home from work Wayne and my daughter were outside playing. I went in the house to rest for a few minutes but when back out to watch my daughter on her hover board and help my husband get Roscoe set back up he broke free and started running around the neighborhood. I really don’t understand why people don’t get the concept of headphones, when I am on my lunch break it consists of Passenger “Let her go” acoustic and playing Spades on my phone but people want to bother me. I just want to be left the fuck alone if I wanted to talk to you I would. I am trying to accomplish small things and making myself feel better. I struggle a lot with everything and I don’t want to be bothered I need calm down time all the time.
Later on we made an amazing supper and watched “The Incredibles 2” Which was an awesome movie. It was great time to spend with those two and I wish everyday could be as fun as it is today. Moods still suck but moments with them make it better.
♥ Daisies and Bruises ♥ 