Today ended up being amazing. I got to leave work a little earlier and see Wayne before my daughter got home from my moms house. My brain is in a fog and I am trying to jump start my brain so I can work on my book. I am still dealing with writers block and it is not fun. Wayne and I went to the store and got STEAK AGAIN!!! He spent way too much money spoiling me. I know it was to make me feel better which it did. I came in the bedroom and watched TV while I ate so he could watch GOT in the living room. I can’t watch GOT because it triggers. You know you got to love the triggers.
My dreams are getting worse and I feel like my brain is trying to tell me something but I can’t figure out what it is. My anxiety is causing some many problems that it is hard to tell what is up and what is down. Rapid cycling sucks. I feel like I have so much energy and then rolling off the couch seems unbearable. I don’t know what I am supposed to do anymore. I just wish I could turn my brain off for a few minutes. The man is getting closer to me becoming more part of my routine lingering around. Let’s see where this takes us.
I’m calling to call my dr in the morning. Here we go again…..