HAPPY EASTER!!! Today is a wonderful day. I get to spend time with my family it is a day off of work and church. I haven’t made it to church in awhile with my hectic work schedule I don’t get there as often as I should. I went to my moms for awhile and spent time with my mom, sister and niece. We had a really good time. My daughter loved everything we got her for Easter. (She outgrew the Easter Bunny.) It was just good family time.
Mental Health: My dreams are crazy but it is like the les and and less I remember when I try to write it down. I don’t know what is going on anymore. This is pit of anxiety hasn’t left yet. Sometimes in moments like this I want Xanax or any benzo for that matter but it is a bad cycle and one I don’t want to start on. I’ve gone down this rabbit hole with these meds and it never ends well. We’ve avoided the self destructive pattern for almost two years and I would like to keep it that way. I just got where Wayne trusts me again and I don’t want to do anything to break that trust. I am so proud of myself for writing this out instead of going right for the pills.